Dream in Cyprus

Dreamed I was watching h carve black marble in the fireplace while psychoanalysing his wife. I remember thinking that I was asking very incisive questions that probed right to the heart of her problems.  I was sitting on the couch while she sat on the floor The carving was just a random shape a bit like the fake ancient marble carvings around the hotel.

New dream
A classic!
I'm attending a funeral wake in a community centre when I can feel my front teeth are wobbly, I look at them in a mirror and yes they are wobbling and come off my gums.  The teeth are made of plastic and have  little tags that would fit to a hole like a plastic toy and there are traces of glue. I try to fit them back in but they won't stay in, I think about when I can get to my dentist, but I'm more worried about if people would notice my teeth are missing

New dream last night after weeks of dreaming about working with clients and giving advice!

The house is really messy, hoarding type messy, stuff everywhere, dirt and bits and pieces all over the floor and furniture.  The kid are sitting around ignoring me and then Richard tells me Judy is coming round.  I ask him when and he says now!  I say why didn't you tell me, so I could tidy up? I feel ashamed of the mess and start piling things into heaps.

Theres a garden, with tall strawberry plants with strawberries the size of pumpkins on them.  There are a lot of people in the garden, all family but half don't know the other half.  Thee kids pick the strawberries and bring them over to the adults, the strawberries are rotten.

Im trying to introduce my dad to my uncle/granddad who is oriental and doesn't speak english.

Dream
Living in a big old flat filled with old furniture like Garage lounge, Steve h came to see me for a chat and during this kissed me and said he thought I was amazing and did I want to have an affair.  I was thrilled, scared and unwilling to be unfaithful all at the same time, he left saying we couldn't be seen in public, I said ok, but it wasn't really ok. Richard came in and was talking about making people redundant at work. Steve came back with his to shirt covered in stickers. He said volunteering was wonderful. Each sticker represented a skill learned or work completed.
Richard was in the kitchen and uncle bill came passed and pointed out the old family pictures on the table, I said we should put some modern ones there too but he said he wasn't ready to do that.

Work-
Today I advised-
if you buy a house, you have to check its ok before your buy, or you can do nothing without paying probably more that it cost to put right.
If you want to defy a court order there are consequences, its contempt of court.
There are organisations that will help you sort out your debts for free

1. www.payplan.org.uk
2. www.stepchange.org.uk

We can listen to you, and direct you to soup kitchens if you are street homeless and try to fight your case.

We can give you details of how to find safety if your partner is beating the shit out of you-and hope you take our advice

Dream-
I was driving my old skoda, in Brighton I was stopped at a crossroads with traffic lights and there were lots of people crossing the road. The lights were red but I was stuck a few feet over ther line and was struggling to see when the lights changed, but when they did I drove down the hill but got confused about the lanes in the road and suddenly I was driving on the pavement.  There was a metal railing on one side and a wall on the other, the pavement narrowed and I got stuck.  I tried to back up but for some reason the way back was too narrow and I was trapped.
Some people came and took me into a shop nearby to get help, it was an underground basement and then my dad came, he was dressed in a random assortment of women's clothes and I was thinking I've got to take him shopping for new clothes once I get the car rescued.  Then Richard came but although he was trying to comfort me he just stayed behind me. I couldn't get him to come round where I could see.
Also
I in another dream I saw a magician doing a magic trick, it was my sitting room with my coffee table by the balcony window,  the magician produced a baby or young child, it was a unclothed child, I thought it was cut in half. one half was above the table the other below, then it ended and the baby walked away.

New dream, seem to be having lots of vivid one lately.

There is someone, a gang etc, taking over the country, I'm one of a two person team who has to survive to do something about it. From my window I can see the houses of parliament being entered by people dressed in black.
My companion says to keep down so they can see us, but I get up to draw the curtains, the windows are very large and so are the curtains, but they are light curtains and I draw them across the windows, except the curtain rail is across the middle of the room, so there's a big gap.
I go back to the window, every where outside is flooded and there a rowing boat with an injured woman and some kids, one of which is under the water as the boat is filled with water, they are saying please help, my companion says we can't help or we will be seen, but I reach out and grab the child from under the water.
Suddenly I'm not in the room anymore but on a high platform, with the little girl, she's not breathing she feels very bony under my hands, and I shake her and rub her back and she starts to breath again.
Then I realise I'm on a high platform and wake up.

I woke early today, cause I needed the loo, too much tea last night! I climbed back in bed and fell asleep again and I dreamed about having to arrange funeral for a man I didn't know.  I dont remember why it was my responsibility, but I was running around trying to sort out this funeral, trying to find or get someone who did know him to speak at the funeral, which was to be at the lighthouse theatre, which in the dream looked like an old prefab building, like a scout hut maybe. This part of the dream ended.  I then found out the lighthouse offered degrees and I was trying to talk amber into taking hers there, I woke up thinking how it was strange the lighthouse was clung degrees as its a theatre.

I dreamed last night that a whole bunch of dogs were in the garden playing,  they were not my dogs but they were very friendly.  After a while it started to rain, so they came inside. It was in my old home, but bigger. I was trying to read the tags on the dogs collars so I could take them back to their owners, but I couldn't make sense of them, they had multiple names and addresses on them. Then the dogs scattered through the house and I was trying to gather them together. At one point I picked one up and carried it with me to a room where some more where.  Then I went to another room to use the loo, but my son was there, he'd been asleep all day and didn't want to go home cause his wife was looking for him.  I went back out and found myself in a labarynth of small rooms, like monks cells that I eventually managers to get through and came out in a very messy kitchen and a lady with a little girl said she would help me find the dogs.  I noticed at this point that I was naked and wearing only a white sheet, which I wrapped tightly round me, then we went out of the kitchen.

I had a dream
I was getting two new cats
they were outside a roadside cafe in a run with litter inside, the cats were adult, piebald, pink and white, the lady selling them to me, told me their names were bobby and spatchcock (a way uk chickens are prepared after killing for cooking).  this seems a significant dream, don't know why.

I have to say I have a cat who is coming up to 20 years old and having had my daughters cats to stay for a few weeks (which he respond too very well) I was thinking about doing doe time soon.

Well, I'm still giving advice of the legal kind (mostly debt management/benefits entitlements) but recently I have been exploring the world of just listening and helping people to resolve their own problems through counselling.

A while ago I decided to go into therapy myself to resolve my feelings of unworth and general depression.  My uncle died and the money he left me gave me the opportunity to do this which i wouldn't have had otherwise.  I was generally unhappy, something I had been for years.  Not depression son crippling I couldn't function, but enough to make some days difficult to get through.

So I did some research and decided to meet up with a psychotherapist called Jenny, who has a bit of a thing about dreams and their significance as well as the general thrust of psychotherapy that we are all products of our upbringing, and imprinted by our parents, sometimes not in a good way.

So we starters this process in September 2012, and since then have met nearly every week for a session.  I think the biggest difference between psychotherapy and person centred counselling (apart from the philosophy) is the couch, it is strangely liberating to lie down and look at the ceiling and talk.  Cause you can't see the therapist, its almost like talking to yourself although they are there listening and sometimes commenting.

Because of these sessions I felt the urge to test out if I could be on the other end of the conversation, be the therapist.  So in September I started a course in counselling skills, that if I stick to it will in three years or so give me the qualifications to do this work.  So the question remains, will i be able to do it?

I'm going to try and document what happens next.

It's been a long while

It's occured to me that I might pick up on this blog, maybe use it to document some of the stuff I'm doing, training to be a psychotherapist, being in therapy, stuff like that, well, we will see how it goes!