Two new dreams:

1
I'm in an old fashioned department store, like bentalls in Worthing.  I'm searching for a skirt for amber for school, it has to be black with an elastic acted waist.  I'm looking through some drawers with pictures on them.  The pictures are things like line drawing of animals and toys.  It's a bit like a large apocathary table drawers. The drawers are small narrow and very long when opened and crammed full of plastic wrapped packages of clothes, I can't find what I'm looking for

2
I'm with a group of adults and children we are  going from school to some where, it's cold with snow one the ground.  I take the hand of a little girl and we set off, but she's upset because she wants to walk in a circle, I try to explain we are walking in a circle, just a big one but she won't listen. We try to walk straight to our destination but there's an old peoples home in the way, I try to find someone to let us through , when I'm talking to someone about it I wake up.

Friday

Hi again, just one day since I started this random thing, its been different today, maybe the universe has been kind, how can you tell?

I feel as if a shell has been growing around me, like an egg, the inside is very delicate, but the outside is brittle, hard but brittle.  Knock it in the right spot and it will shatter.  It remains to be seen if that will happen and what the consequences will be.

That's for later, as for now

I've come to this, writing my thoughts into the ether because I don't have any friends, no one person who likes me for friendships sake only.  I don't say that to get sympathy, its just happened like that.  I don't think I'm unlikable, its just that I've usually drawn friends from where I work, with one or two rare exceptions, now I'm the bosses partner and that means on the one hand they think I can't entirely be trusted and on the other I have to moderate my behaviour because I'm one of the bosses.  You would be right in thinking I have painted myself into a corner.  Can't think of a damned thing to do about it though.  This leaves me with a dilemma, a great deal to talk about, and no one to talk too.  So I've decided to talk to the internet, how very very in the moment I feel right now.

I work in a place that talks to people, people with needs, be it money, homes, stability they are vunerable and have needs.  Similarly, the people in the office have needs, work, companionship, etc.  I manage the work people who talk to the people with needs.  It can be very stressful, after all who gose home happy after spending an hour with people who can't feed their children?